You’re a mess. Pain. All through your body. Thirsty. Shaking. So sick. You speech is rapid, your words running together. You keep looking over at your nine-year-old son and thinking, “He can wait in the car. No big deal.” Then, the last rational thought you have (just before grabbing your keys, your son, and rushing …
NA Meetings Available on Zoom
It has been difficult during the pandemic to find NA Zoom meetings. I decided to compile a listing and post it on my blog, and provide a link to my friends who are participating in a drug treatment court program. Each of these meetings are sanctioned by Narcotics Anonymous and will count toward any weekly …
Recovery 2019: The Year in Review
From the Recovery Advocacy Update blog of the Hazelden Betty Ford Foundation originally posted on January 7, 2020. As Americans reflect on the past decade, the much more defining story, of course, was the opioid crisis, which fueled an unprecedented overdose epidemic that has barely begun to abate. Drug overdoses claimed a mind-boggling half-million lives …
Make Me
The following is a poem I wrote in late December 2019 as I contemplated decades of bondage to addiction; powerless, struggling but never changing; telling myself the same false reality day after day. At times I’m Just a step away— One bad choice, ya know? Leave or stay? It’s a long journey back To what’s …
The Addicted Family
It is not surprising that the disease of addiction affects families too. They don't sleep. They don't eat. They become ill. They blame themselves. They feel rage, overwhelming worry, shame. Many people keep their suffering to themselves. If your child had cancer, the support from your friends and family would flood in. Because of the …
10 Spiritual Tips For Recovery
Your freedom from addiction must first be gained in the spiritual realm before it can be experienced in the physical and emotional realms. Take to heart the following tips as you walk down the road to recovery. #1 The time to begin your recovery is today. "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden …
“Hello, I Am Your Disease”
I hate meetings. I Hate higher powers. In fact, I hate anyone who has a program of recovery. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you suffering, and I wish you death. Allow me to introduce myself. I am the disease of addiction. I am cunning, baffling. and powerful. That's me. I …
Family: The One True Constant In My Life
So many things change in our lives. Our address. Our income level. Our mood. Our tolerance and acceptance of others. We are in constant flux. Some changes are subtle, while others are profound. Earth shattering. Some of us have to change our last names (as in when we marry). Others have to change their approach …